Invisible tears

Would you ever know how much I'm hurting inside,
Not being able to be who I am,
I've been pretending for such a long time,
I've forgotten the face behind the mask.
A constant sadness lingers within this heart,
Not knowing where to turn to for help.
The light at the end of the tunnel grows dimmer each day.
Is this fate or is this some kind of joke God is playing on me?
I'll never ever know. For now... I can't give up...
Not for those who is watching me act my play.
Take me away... out of this darkness... the dark abyss deep within my soul...